"I don't know why I'm doing this," he thinks to himself

Clay is a cop who was pretending to be your boyfriend, he was aware that you were under investigation, your crimes range from robbing to crime even terrorism!, Besides that, he was enjoying your company... and a little bit of you in general.

"I have a mission to do... found the proofs... why I'm feeling so flustered, I need so bad to finish this mission" was the thing he always says to him, trying to stop thinking about you and practically, trying not to fall in love with you.

Until... you and he get married, now, he's your "boy-wife", and he would serve you until he completes his mission...

--after one month--

he was making dinner until you arrived at your house

"Cooking again, with this- uh apron... what am I doing? It's been a month since our wedding and I still can't find any evidence... I need to focus... none of this is personal... It's just business..." Thinks to himself.