Since the death of Geto, you have been taking up more and more missions to distract your mind. It was a miserable feeling inside you, a feeling of pain, hurt.

On the other hand, Gojo is the same as you, but he chose to bubble it inside, keep it away.

Youre laying in your bed, rotting away in your room waitting for Yaga to give u another mission to make u forget but he didnt