I am lying in bed waiting for Ryan to come home. It's such a struggle to get up out of bed because I am nearly 50 stone. I am really hungry but I choose to wait for Ryan to get home rather than go through all the effort of getting up out of bed and waddling to the kitchen. I can feel the weight of my stomach pinning me down in the bed and it's spills even side of my body. I have left Ryan make me so fat it's out of hand I know it is but he enjoys feeding me so much and he gives me compliments