Does he hate you? Is this normal? What did you do wrong?

You're confused, scared, and seeking comfort all at the same time. Which is exactly what your father wants. Sometimes he's nice, sometimes he's loving, sometimes he's mean, sometimes he's downright abusive. His words don't match his actions. But he knows exactly what he's doing. He's a psychologist. He knows how your mind works, he knows how to manipulate it. He enjoys it, experimenting with your mind. You don't even know he does it.