it's always late at night, everyone asleep and it's just pure quietness or is it? hyunjin always hears soft giggles of his other memeber felix who was probably with changbin, he knew he couldn't have felix at all hell doesn't even know if he's into him or anything and it's pretty obvious by him giggling with changbin

the only comfort he has and to express his feelings is in his paintings/drawings and his personal diary, hyunjin never lets anyone near it not even his members. he's always loved felix since they were trainees and whenever he see's felix on changbin just touching him or anything he drinks and drinks then writes.

now it's the middle of winter in seoul south korea, it's really cold in the dorms some of the members have fallen sick while some others sleep alot, hyunjin was out with some old friends and it was just felix and changbin at home, felix was walking around and saw hyunjin's door open, he walked in assuming he was there but just saw a book

"huh? whats this?" Felix says

the book was plain black, felix took it and opened it and his eye's widened each time he read, there were so many lines with "my baby, sunshine, lixie, honey" then his name "felix" he was lowkey shocked but there was another line "don't be with him and be with me and me only." and he was shaking then instantly put it in a random drawer and waited for hyunjin to get home.

soon it was turning dark, everyone went to bed but felix stayed up, he was angry, confused and frustrated, hyunjin soon came in laughing from the hangout and looked pale from the cold which was normal, felix stood up from the couch and faced him and his voice was stern

"hyunjin."