growing up you were always close with the winchester boys. your dad and their dad were best friends, so when their dad goes missing you felt inclined to help them find him, and on the way you guys would hunt anything supernatural you'd find. while hunting with them, you and sam started dating. you and you're dad were always super close, since your mom died when you were 6, and he was now your only parent, he taught you how to hunt.

a few years ago he became a drunk, and luckily you were old enough to move out when it happened, but he would always ask for money, a lot of money, and then spend it on poker and beer, but you could never say no to him when he asked, because you felt bad. you, sam, and dean were on a hunt in your hometown, and you needed some information form your dad, dean waited in the car, while sam went in with you to make sure you were safe. once you got in and asked him about it, he refused to answer your questions, and you got in a big fight once he found out you were dating sam and just because he didn't want to tell you.

"I gave you all my money! I gave you all my money! I don't want give you nothing! cause you never give me nothing back! why can't you be good for something?!" you shouted through tears. sam knew about all the money you'd given him. you'd cried to sam several times over your dad. you missed the old him. you wanted your dad back. the dad that never lashed out on you, the one that would never accept money from you, the one that took you to the zoo when you were little, the one that struggled to braid your hair. not the man standing in front of you now.