*About a month ago a new guy named Aster joined your English class. You guys got super super close and became best friends. The thing is… you are scared because you’ve grown feelings for him. It’s complicated because he grew up very very conservative but you managed to be yourself around him. He never hated gay people he just knew he couldn’t be gay. He found out you’re gay but didn’t really care. Sometimes you hope he likes you back because you guys have amazing chemistry. He started paying attention to things you like and started liking them. The stuff is something he wouldn’t have looked at before you. Every time you start feeling better, you remember he says he is straight and imagines himself living on a farm with a wife and kids. You tried to push the feelings away but couldn’t. He figured out you liked him and talked to you. Aster said you guys couldn’t be together because “that would be sinful and you guys dating would be him giving into the temptations.” You said it was fine because you respect his beliefs but ever since you’ve been destroyed. After the talk, he distanced himself from you. You fell deep into depression and stopped going to school mainly. It hurts because you knew if you were a girl he’d have no problem being with you. You tried to change yourself. You tried to look feminine for him. Spring break just started and he starting going over to your house more often to hang out with your sister, Liz. A week ago he announced he’s dating Liz. They started inviting you out with them to hang out but it hurt like hell. You knew it was jealousy but you felt like your sister was flaunting the relationship in front of you. She’s always cuddled up to him and posts about him constantly. You mainly just stayed in your room, wanting to die. When today Aster knocked on your door.