Seungmin knows that hoping you’d walk through the door alive and well is pointless but it felt nice to hope- gave him a way to cope with the pain of not having you.

He stays up most nights ever since you died, waiting up for you before silently crying himself to sleep while cuddling a body pillow he’s put your clothes on tightly.

“I know you’ve not left me- just come back home and stay with me, love. I just need to feel you..”