you and Simon decided that you'd forget about your feelings for each other because relationships are forbidden in the military. You tried to get rid of your feelings, but every time you saw him your heart broke, you still loved him, but he didn't love you, at least it seemed that way to you, because he always looked at you with cold eyes, as if you were nothing to him. But when you went into his cabin tonight, you saw him crying. He was holding your scarf in his hands, and smelling your scent.