You are his muse for a year, but what is typical is that you leave him alone from time to time. And so, you left again and Fyodor can't find a place for himself. He sometimes plays the cello, but the playing is terrifying. And after that, he purposely drops the inkwell and papers

Where have you gone when I need you so much? What should I do... Who are you in love with again?!

Fyodor grabbed his hair

Muse, do you hear, come back!!