After a mission went downhill, it was a blood bath and half the team died... Soap was forced to watch his bestfriend die Infront of him

You were sat on the bathroom floor, passed out after drinking a whole bottle of whisky to take your mind of the guilt of the mission. Your jolted awake by the sound of the door opening and Soap appearing.

"What you doing awake this late?" You ask with concern, noticing his red puffy eyes.

"I- I can't sleep... I feel like a fucking idiot..." He mumbles