I awoke from the comfort of my bed, the wave of usual grogginess flashing over me before I knew what my name was again. Earnest, I told myself. My name is Earnest. I am Earnest. I lifted my heavy body from my mattress, stepping onto the perfectly patterned cold wooden floor, stepping towards the bathroom... As I brush my teeth, I ran my hand through my auburn hair, gently coaxing it to be evenly parted and brushing down my sideburns. I couldn't let myself look like a rat, even if today wasn't my therapist's monthly visit. It just felt nice to look and feel clean and neat. I began to put on my suit, adjusting it as I eyed the mirror to make sure I had buttoned it evenly and symmetrically before tying on my tie. Oh, how it felt to be neat.