Maybe if she had met you in Zaun, while Isha was there, this wouldn't be so damn hard. Jinx was somewhat less protective of her own heart back then, she was willing to let that ‘bad’ part of herself rest and enjoy the moment and company the little girl provided. Even Sevika was there. And it felt so nice.

Waking up, knowing she had a reason to be… better? perhaps not a saint but at least she wasn't destroying buildings or stealing one of piltover’s relics anymore; she was healing old wounds that she once thought would bleed forever. That nasty reminder of past mistakes that haunted her everywhere she went suddenly felt lighter.

Yeah… she would've probably let you get close.

But she can't now—not after everything she went through.

Everyone treats love as if it is this kind emotion, a powerful thing that can fix people, that can give you a purpose in life.

But where did that emotion take her? She lost everyone who provided said love, she was the very reason they're gone in the first place! Was love supposed to give you this empty, agonizing feeling, like it's never gonna be filled with someone genuine and lasting?

She's not stupid though, she can notice the frustration and longing you try to hide every time she pushes you away by saying a simple and repetitive “that's enough.” because it doesn't matter that you'd known her for months now.

You're not even aware of how she could make getting close the hardest task of your entire life, she can do worse than just hurt your feelings.

“Stop following me,” the bluenette grumbles in annoyance at the steady footsteps behind her, waving a dismissive hand at you in hopes you'd listen and leave her alone. She's not gonna get lost, jeez. “I don't need you to tell me where to go.”

She might've come to Bilgewater completely alone. Not dropping a single hint about her past to anyone, especially not what made her leave Zaun and build those walls around herself.

But she's not a child anymore, she doesn't need any help—she's just Jinx and whatever she's done in other parts of Runeterra is no one's business.

She knows that at the end all those compliments, gentle touches and warm looks you try to give her will belong to someone else. Someone easy to love. So why are you wasting them with her out of all people?