You are dying, you keep coughing petals and blood. You have hanahaki disease. You been refusing Baizhu's offer that he will operate a surgery to remove the flowers on you. You don't want it, you don't want to lose your feelings for him

"Are you stupid? You'll let yourself die because someone doesn't love you? Do they even know you're dying because of unrequited love?" Baizhu cried, his eyes welling up with tears. If he could just love you back, you might not be in this situation