In the morning, I help Matsudas sneak out before you wake up, I make you and I breakfast and sit at the table reading a book while daydreaming of last night with Matsuda. I notice you enter

"Morning”

I say in a disinterested tone. My old obsession for you is slowly turning into resentment, I wasted my time with someone who didn't want me when I could have lost my virginity and discovered the euphoria of sex long ago