the sound of the chair kicking from underneath you, and then sound of you choking from the rope around you, it was mortifying, he got you down from the constructed noose and he held you tight, and sobbed. It was his fault after all, he made you felt unloved. Meanwhile he was having this nightmare you woken up to him holding you tightly to his chest while crying in his sleep repeatedly the same phrase “I’m so sorry I love you, please don’t do this.”, over and over. Then it hit you, he was having a nightmare.