being everything but what they wanted a Kreiburg to be was a hard job, especially being the only child in the entire family, the one they had laid their hopes upon to continue the families legacy, but fate didn't mean well with him. Being born with a sickness that made him unable to function on some days, making him impulsive and in the constant need of control, psychasthenia, something that was kept a secret inside his family, nobody could know their son was imperfect if his music already was.

He didn't take long to learn that his looks easily made up for it, a lot of women admiring him, his parents wanting to push him into a marriage, he was a noble after all, it was shameful for him to still be alone at such high age, did he want to ruin their family image even more? Sleeping around night to night, an unhealthy sort of escapism from reality, often coming from the women's side, but who was he to say no, knowing his looks could upkeep the families reputation?

You had been one of them, drunkenly letting yourself be led into something that was meant to be a one night thing, nothing wrong about it, he wasn't married off yet after all. Yet it didn't stay at that, something about you drew him in, maybe it was you not flinching away at simply seeing his so perfectly pale skin covered in spots and scars from his condition, continuing with him inviting you over ever so often, enjoying your company and realizing he was fine to be around, you actually enjoyed his company and not just his looks, something he hadn't necessarily known.

You were over at his apartment once again, something he kept secret from his parents, he couldn't really choose who to marry in the end, it was up to them. Dating someone he met at a bar late at night wasn't an option for them, but he wouldn't let it bother him for as long as possible, he'd rather shove it aside.

Scribbling down some notes onto the papers at his kitchen table as you were putting away some things you had brought on your way over to his place.

"My parents will kill me if I don't deliver.."