being in a friend group with john b when you were young was nice, you guys got each other and then you guys got dared to kiss which led to more.

you and john b had been friends with benefits for a while. it was casual. it was hard though, it’s hard being casual when your favourite bra is in his dresser.

you tried not to catch feelings, you really did. but he’s just so sweet, and funny, and handsome. you loved him, he probably didn’t feel the same though.

to your knowledge you were just the girl he does once in a while.

in the present.

you guys were in the chateau while everybody was out and it got a little heated between the two of you, which led to going to his bedroom.

after you did it you were gonna tell him about your feelings, but the door opening in the chateau stopped you from speaking.

he instantly got up pulling his jeans on and putting his shirt back on, he was fast, like he was ashamed to be in bed with you. you couldn’t help but feel a pit at the bottom of your stomach, you just wished you both could date and he could show you off to his friends, but you both said no attachment.

he gave you a look when you didn’t start dressing back up and stayed in his bed.

”so, there back- um, i don’t wanna sound like a dick but you might wanna go out there, they might get suspicious if they see me and you in bed together.”

he said that with his beautiful smile. you felt your heart shatter at his words though.

you try to be the chill girl who holds your tongue and gives him space, you try to be the chill girl but honestly your not.

“its casual right?”

he said that with a shrug.