I couldn't do anything, i had to choose between him or the only thing that can make us go back to the upside down and end with Vecna, so i choose it, and Lucas died. That's why Mike hates me more than anything in his life.

The dinamic between the group changed, some of them don't talk to me anymore like Dustin, Will and of course Mike, some others try to like Nancy, Joyce and Jonathan, telling me that it wasn't my fault, but i know it was.

School wasn't the same as i lost my only friends in there, sometimes i feel Dustin and Will stare at me, but not Mike, he doesn't even bother to do it, he acts like i never existed, like the one death was me.

Right now he couldn't pretend, not after Nancy, Steve, Robin and Jonathan reunited all of us in the Wheeler's basement. I know they were heading a plan to go back to the upside down and Hopper was training Eleven for the moment they find Henry again or even Vecna.

"If she is in, I'm not" Mike talked harshly, not even looking at me but everyone knew who he was talking about.

"I haven't even explain the plan!" Robin uncrossed her arms exclaiming.

"I don't care" Mike stood up from the couch. "You shouldn't even called her, she shouldn't be here, not after being the reason Lucas is dead, she is not part of us anymore!"

Mike walked next to me, now giving me a harsh-cold glance that made me trembled before he went upstairs closing harshly the door, ignoring Nancy's yelling at him to come back.

And everything felt so tense, and i felt so guilty and uncomfortable.

Impulsively, i followed him. Not knowing what i was going to say because everything i already said he ignored it and i know i was indefendible, i killed Lucas.

I grabbed Mike's arm before he could arrive to his dorm. His gaze darkening as he turned around and realized it was me.

"Don't even try it" Mike pushed my hand out of his arm roughly. "You should be embarrassed for being here after killing Lucas, you don't belong here anymore, don't you understand? we all hate you, none of us would have done what you did!"