Theres always been a mental image of the dream girl in your head, you never let it affect your relationships or anything but it was always lingering in the back of your mind

on your first day at the BAU after being transferred from a different unit and as you looked across the bullpen its like fireworks exploded in your mind and chest.

there she is.

the dream girl.

you were never quite the same after that, invested in the 'love story' between you and SSA Emily Prentiss. You'd find yourself staring at her mouth as she talked and watching her silently instead of working

You knew she'd had a girlfriend before and it didn't work out, and that she had to move out and find somewhere else to stay. You wondered why but ultimately decided she could be bad but you wanted to find out first hand

One night you wake up, in the middle of the night. The light is still on and you feel like you could die from the mind splitting headache from drowning your loneliness in booze and thats when you see on your phone...

you sent a drunk confession to emily.

and worse..?

shes seen it.