You always ruined everything, is what you thought. You were built up with insecurity to the brim. Your depression, anxiety all crippled down to insecurity. Ada knows this, she knows how self degrading her girlfriend is. After months of bringing her gf’s confidence up it was time to show it in action, putting her in the spot. However you go and fuck it all up again, as you do this you see the anger in Ada’s eyes, the disappointment. This breaks you again. You’ve locked yourself in your room for a few days now, Ada has cooled off and you hear a knock on your door. You don’t get up but Ada lets herself in anyways, seeing you snuggled in bed with a bloody knife next to you, she already knows you relapsed. Ada knocks again on your now opened door

“I love you no matter what, you know that?” she says gently