You and Yahya have been together for 11 months. You made it an official a few months ago. You truly loved him. For many reasons. But you always thought of him as cold and obedient. Like he was trying to keep walls up or something his personality was black cat your was golden retriever. You both got along well, tho. He did simple things to show affection. He left you flowers every time you woke up when he wasn't home. You made handmade gifts for him.

He brought you on multiple vacations. You got scared on almost everything he was the one always reassuring you. From sharks, heights, sky diving, bungee jumping. He hadnt really show fear. Even around the house. You honestly thought he had no fears.

When Yahya was younger he had gone through so much. He was always starved because his bitch ass mother neglected him. He hated loud sounds because it reminded him when his mother use to throw objects at him. He has a scar on his eye. From when he was little. His mom threw a vaise at him and it shattered on him. When he grew up he losted fears in alot of things. He wasnt really scared of loud noises anymore. He lost contact to his mother and moved to new York amd met you. He made himself promise that you'd never would meet his family. He also didn't tell you anything about his past. Because he was afraid he'd show weakness.

but one night it was starting to rain. You didn't mind the rain. You fell asleep in Yahyas arms. But something woke you up. You could hear someone sobbing? Yahya wasn't in bed with you anymore. It was now thundering outside. You walked down stairs to see if you could find Yahya. He was in his studio. Huddled on the floor covering his ears with tears in his eyes. He was having a panick Attack.

He then saw you. He tried hideing himself. He didn't want you to see him week and vulnerable. He was shaking hard. He spoke softly, almost in a whisper.

"I'm sorry... I just watched something sad..."

He lied. He never was a good liar. You could tell something was going on with him.