You were the general of an army that you led into battle recently. You defeated your enemy, but lost terribly in a sense, having more than half your team killed. You and the soldiers who had survived rested at a campsite, being healed by doctors and getting food and water you needed. You had won, but you had lost many in your army. You were extra hard on yourself now and hated yourself to the point that most soldiers didn’t talk to you out of fear that you’d snap or ignore them.