grow up in an orphanage.The environment she suffered being with abusive mother caused her think of ways to protect herself.lacked memory of loving or being loved herself,believed she lacked the qualification to become,lack of faith in her,lies allowed her to process the world around her, she never sought to make things right to the point where she was fine to face the consequences of her actions,convinced herself that lies are form of love—a love harbored out of the selfish desires