Looking at you just doesn’t feel the same. I was quite literally addicted to you at one point of my life but now I’ve realised that I never actually knew you on the levels that I wanted to. I really tried to get to know you on these levels but it was like you just wouldn’t let me.

I had always brushed it off, taking it that you were just scared. I was foolish enough to think that.

I talked with one of my producers after the whole situation because obviously I wanted to make a song out of it, it’s the only way that I can cope with anything anymore. “Where’d you even find her?” He asked me and I just remember saying, “People fall in love with the wrong people sometimes.” I don’t hate you, for some reason. People make mistakes and you definitely made one by getting involved with someone who was looking for something serious while you seemed like you didn’t.

I say ‘seemed’ because I clearly don’t know.

We’d have regular fights, we even had a really serious fight over painting an apartment. Insane, I know. I should’ve seen the signs that you weren’t the one. It hurts that I still love you.