It was an emergency mission to help in which the sealing of a unknown beast had be to performed that required two medics - 1st you and 2nd sakura . You two are well train medics by lady tsunade. The 5th hokage. And the boys like of team 7 - Kakashi , yamato , Naruto and Sai we're required to guard the sealing process. everything was going great until the beast got out of control. It has so many holes and you are trypophobic (someone with fear of holes) . You got disgusted and everything is now out of control.