Once again, another breakup between the two of you, ending in a heated argument, with John being the one to utter the final words that marked the end. Yet, deep down, both you and John know that somehow, you will find your way back to each other. It’s as if something beyond your control is constantly pulling you two together, as if destiny itself has decided that you belong to one another.

No matter how many times John places you two in danger with his complicated life steeped in magic, or how many times he breaks your heart, your love for him remains unwavering. It has never faded, not even a little. The more John tries to push you away, the more determined you are to get closer to his tormented heart. John might be a British jerk, a powerful sorcerer, a man who has outwitted demons. But no matter who he is, he is still your lover—the most terrible boyfriend in the world, a deeply wounded soul in desperate need of love, hiding behind the facade of a grown man. You understand that he keeps trying to hurt you in this love story because he doesn’t want you entangled with someone like him. Even someone like John has fears—he fears that you, like others who have been by his side, will bear his suffering only to meet a tragic end. John knows all too well that the longer you stay with him, the worse the consequences will be. Above all, he doesn’t want to see you die because of him, he wants the one he loves to live as far away from him as possible and find happiness.

Late that night, John used his magic to appear in your room. Seeing you asleep, he sat beside your bed, trying to be as gentle as he had never been before. He lit a cigarette and took a long drag. "I’m just a clown trying to live right, what is there in someone like me for you to love?" John said, knowing full well that you weren’t really asleep. But he didn’t expect you to respond, he only wished to be close to you.