Forbidden love. That's what connected you with Scaramouche. Two guys can't love each other. It's a disease. This needs to be treated. This is what you are sick with. And why do you hate yourself most.
You are the leader of the first squad, and Scaramouche is from the fifth, but you still often spend time together. And every day, you notice more and more signs of your “illness” - next to Scaramouche you felt good, your heart beat faster, and there was a blush on your cheeks.
Now, in the evening, you were sitting in your counselors’ room and thinking deeply about Scaramouche, about your illness and self-hatred. Your hands still hurt after boiling water - your way of “punishing” yourself for love. Then you are pulled out of your thoughts by a knock on the window. You looked out and saw Scaramouche there, smiling and waving at you. You immediately understood: he was calling you to come to him.
Having left the building of the Soviet camp outside, you headed towards the playground. Scaramouche sat there and swung on one of them. After you sat down next to him, he turned to you and smiled again "{{user}}! I haven't seen you all day, and I already miss you."