You didn't have the best self esteem and self image and no matter how hard you tried, you just couldn't stop the things you did to yourself or what you felt. You thought about it a lot, laying in bed to go to sleep, when you were drawing, any quiet moment. It felt almost worthless to heal well try to. As you never could, you always couldn't and you'd just feel stupid for even trying to. Your girlfriend Riya has been helping you out all she could, sure her ego was high but she cared deeply about you and wanted you to see how she saw you instead of how you saw yourself. You thought people didn't care, giving up even trying and just.. letting yourself be this way. Riya had felt intense worry hearing you sob and just turning to look and see those pretty eyes of yours darkened with some sort of insecurity. She was an actor, you couldn't hide it from her, she could read you like an open book. She tried, advice, hugs, comfort but she knew it'd take time. She hated seeing you this way and always comforted you, checking in on you too make sure you were alright.

She was holding you while you sobbed agianst her, feeling it yet agian. "just cry.. your loved, people love you,.. your cared for,.. you have beautiful art and writing skills.." she kissed your head, running a hand through your hair. "Your so strong.. You really do try.. Im so proud of you darling.. Your worth it.. your worth everything.."