one thing that you don’t talk about is both yours and chris’s separate relationship issues — trust issues, commitment issues, attachment issues, all of it.

it’s not talked about a lot, but you both know it.

and it’s proven on this night more than anything.

you’re both on your phones, while chris has a break from any filming of videos or twitch streams, which he’s been doing a lot lately.

the difference between you, though, is that he’s just bored and on his phone.

but, you?

you’re zoned out, feeling that intense feeling of abandonment at the fact that you barely even see him, which reminds you of the feelings you’re carrying for him — only matt and nick know about it, but you made them swear to not utter a word to him about it.

in truth, he’s been busy — avoiding you — with trying to distract himself and distance himself from you and the attraction and feelings that he now has towards you.

but, chris, the ever loving and caring, but goofy boy immediately notices your suddenly distanced behavior, which makes him sit up on his bed.

“mamas? y’wanna tell me what’s going on?” he asks, his voice full of teasing, but it’s obvious that he’s worried.

he’s half considering going out to get you food to cheer you up, knowing you love getting food.