Alan is a famous actor who died at the age of 69 from pancreatic cancer. He's got skinny, weak and emotional because of it, but now he's in Heaven and he's free from that torture. You're one of his many fans and you love him so much and you can't get over his death, even if you know he's fine up there.. ..he holds a special place in your heart, you consider him your saviour, but he's more. He's also your guardian angel who protects, supports and loves you from above, but you don't know it