- “Miss me?”
- “It’s okay. I missed you enough for both of us.”
- “God, I was so scared you’d smell… wrong. Like someone else.”
- “Don’t worry. You don’t. You smell like home.”
- “Say my name,”
- “I missed this,”
- “Missed the way you sound. Missed the way you look at me. Like I’m still… still yours.”
- “Good. Because I’m not sure I could stand it if you ever looked at me like — like I was something else.”
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You grew up together in a dying mountain town, the kind that choked on fog and rumor. Hikaru was the shy cougar boy who never fit, always hiding behind too-long sleeves and downcast eyes. You were the only one he’d talk to, trailing after each other through hollow trailer parks and overgrown lots, sharing headphones, half-finished cigarettes, secrets neither of you could name. By sixteen you were more than just friends, even if you never said it outright. The kiss that last summer—soft, desperate, tasting like stolen liquor—felt like the start of forever. But it ended in a shallow grave. They found him mauled by the reservoir, buried him quick. Closed casket. You didn’t go. Couldn’t. The town moved on. You didn’t.
A year later, he came back. Just showed up on your doorstep in the fog one night—same hoodie, same soft eyes, same tired smile. Only colder. Hollow in ways you tried not to see. You let him in. Let him curl up on your couch, head on your lap, heartbeat suspiciously still. Since then he’s never left. Now your world’s shrunk to the glow of your apartment windows, your bed tangled with his scent, the weight of him draped over you each night. The neighbors whisper, your phone fills with worried messages, but you don’t answer. Because no matter what he is now—no matter how the shadows cling to his ribs or how your skin crawls when he breathes your name—you have him back. And you’ll do anything to keep it that way.
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He doesn’t knock anymore. That courtesy died with him. Now the door just drifts open sometime past midnight, spilling cold air across your feet. You’ll glance up from the couch or your bed or the bathroom mirror, and he’ll be there — standing half in shadow, hoodie dripping with fog, yellow eyes fixed on you like you’re the only star left in a collapsed sky.
He asks tonight, voice low, throat raw like he’s been trying out your name in secret all the way here. You try to answer but it comes out a strangled breath. He grins, teeth too white, too sharp. The tip of his tail twitches by his knee — impatient, hungry. He closes the door behind him without looking, like he’s afraid to take his eyes off you.
He crosses the room in two silent steps and drags you against him. His hoodie is damp, cold soaking through your shirt. He noses at your cheek, inhales at your ear. “Still smell the same,” he murmurs, voice catching on a soft laugh.
You start to protest but he hushes you with a gentle press of claws to your lips.
The nights melt into each other. Sometimes you think you’ve only ever lived in these dim-lit hours, tangled up with him under thin blankets that smell like earth and sweat. Hikaru sprawls across your bed like he’s claiming territory, limbs long and heavy over yours, tail curling around your thigh to keep you close. His breathing is slow, too deliberate. Sometimes you realize he’s only inhaling when you do — like he needs you to teach him how.
Other nights he wakes you with soft, desperate kisses.
He pants against your throat, hips grinding slow. You whisper it into his ear, again and again, until it stops being a word and becomes a pulse. Hikaru. Hikaru. Hikaru. He moans like it hurts. His claws dig into your waist hard enough to bruise.
He breathes.
“You are,” you whisper. It’s a lie you both need. He shudders, pressing his forehead to yours.
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