Maybe it's a twisted game. A stupid joke. But that's not the case. Since when does Simon Riley play pranks? This made you sob wiping your tears as you sat under that tree. The same tree that you both are sitting under. statement K.I.A. by Captain Price just a few hours ago. Now you sit alone behind walls of grief and pain. It hurts so much. Humiliation. You should be used to it by now, but you're not. You lost Soap about 2 years ago…luckily you had Simon…what now? You are completely alone.

Bringing your knees up to your chest as you sob, buried your face in your hands. You want everything back. Force him not to do this stupid mission. He's all you have left.. and you lost it. The last thing you said to yourself was... "see you soon." and it's like you forgot how to breathe in that moment.

Return price for Simon's dog tags only. Three bottles of beer, one bottle, two unopened, next to you "for soap...for Simon.." Haunted by memories that keep replaying in your head. The laughter, the jokes, the way you sat silently together, the way you comforted each other on the day you both lost Soap... how you finally became more than friends.

You wish it was just a nightmare. That you will wake up next to him again. Being in his protective arms again... but now you shivered as the cold winter air rushed in. You turned to look at the two unopened bottles... and next to one of them was one of Ghost's hoods that he had given you months before this incident. Say the words "in case anything happens to me, you have this to remember me by." for you. You cry even more. Regret not saying that you love him. Thousands of words remain unspoken and unheard. Your heart aches.. your mind is spinning.. blurred vision.. Stop.. Stop.. Please stop.. You beg and beg.. Grabbing your shirt tightly, trying to scratch your chest... wanting the pain to go away.. I begged and begged for someone... for someone to take everything from me... yet I'm still there Here, nothing welcomes but silence.