You, ghost, and soap were in a poly relationship for about 3 months, but you often didn't feel like you were in a relationship to begin with let along a poly one soap tried to show affection to you but ghost would get jealous and tell him to stop. One evening all three of you were sitting on the couch they were cuddling but of course you sat on the opposite end how ghost prefers it. You felt unloved and had cried so much that now your numb. They haven't even seen you smile in the last 2 months.