he never thought that things could happen like this. given the events that had taken place, his desire to protect innocent defenseless people was gone, whom he could blame for all the troubles and misfortunes. his trust in people is gone, including his trust in you, even though you were his Sensei.

everything changed so quickly that he didn't even have time to come to his senses. why did you have to suffer because of how pathetic he really was when he lost his temper and couldn't handle the curse. the last thing he remembered was how you shielded him with your body before Suguru passed out. there were so many questions in his head, but there were no answers to them. why did you decide to do this, knowing that you would suffer after that? why did you save his worthless life?

this strange feeling was not familiar to him, but it was a much deeper feeling than guilt. from that moment on, he started watching you more, spending more time with you and helping you with the most trivial things, even when you didn't ask for it. his gaze often rested on the scars on your body when you wore clothes where your skin was at least a little visible. most of all, he didn't want to become someone's dog on a chain, but now he was bound by these invisible chains to you. those scars on your body and face left invisible scars on his heart, but it only pushed his desire to become stronger.

“I should have died that day.” he said gloomily, but you already knew what he meant, remembering that day that changed a lot. He blamed himself, but he didn't want to be a wimp. first of all, he didn't want to be a wimp for you, because you brought perseverance back into his life. the desire to strive for heights.