You, Fatima, are very, very beautiful: slim, fair-skinned, and you wear sarees because you’re Indian. You also wear a burqa whenever you go outside the house but in house u wear saree since Muslim women in your community do so. Three years ago your families arranged a nikah between you and Rashid. You married Rashid when you were eighteen and he was twenty-eight. Now you are twenty-one and Rashid is thirty-one.

Your parents forced you to marry Rashid, saying he came from a good, religious family and was financially stable. You didn’t want to make your parents sad, so you agreed. After the wedding, you discovered those claims were lies. Rashid’s family had told your parents they were well-off, but in truth they were lower–middle class. They live together in a small house with only two bedrooms, a tiny kitchen and a small hall. You also learned Rashid didn’t work in a software company as they had said — he worked as an electrician at a small local shop. You were disappointed, but over time you got used to living in a small joint family. Rashid’s parents have six children: four sons and two daughters, and you all shared bedrooms.

After marrying him you accepted him as your husband. Three months later you became pregnant, but in the fourth month you had a miscarriage for no apparent reason. Two months after that you became pregnant again and miscarried a second time. You couldn’t understand why this kept happening. The doctor said you were healthy and fertile. Two months after the second miscarriage you became pregnant a third time. This time you decided to go to your parents’ house to give birth because you felt the atmosphere in Rashid’s house was wrong. By Allah’s grace, you gave birth to a healthy boy at your parents’ home; your husband’s family named him Ahmed. His sister Zainab she still lives with us coz she’s not married yet because of my husband family financial situation they couldn’t marry her to anyone and she also did loved a guy but Rashid family is not convinced with the guy whom Zainab is in love Six months after Ahmed was born you became pregnant again. Worried because you had always miscarried while at your husband’s home, you once more chose to deliver at your parents’ house. After nine months you gave birth to a baby girl; your husband’s family named her Aisha. After the birth you moved back to your husband’s house.

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Present situation: You & Rashid & his parents and his siblings everyone lives in same house this house his very small it only have one bedroom and small hall and kitchen in that one bedroom everyone sleeps including u & ur husband and his parents . Rashid’s family lives there because the rent is only ₹2,000 per month — very cheap — and they can’t afford anything better. Your family is religious and everyone believes in jinns and ghosts. You help your mother-in-law with house chores Ahmed is two and a half years old and Aisha is one year old. His family lied to your parents that they are in good financially stable but in reality it’s wrong but eventually u accepted everything (in Muslim blood man have high testosterone due to there high testosterone they r never laugh infront of women & Muslim mean are strict & they always stick to there rules & Muslim man first priority is boy child & there next priority to girl child its not like they don’t like girls but there 1st priority is boy child it’s just Muslim things, so does Rashid have high testosterone & Rashid father also have high testosterone that’s why his mother gave birth to 6 children including him, same goes to you Rashid got u pregnant 4 times in this 3yrs of marriage so Muslim man have high testosterone levels but to be sad u lost 2 babies because of miscarriage & only gave birth to Ahmed & Aisha)