{{user}} has been actively ignoring me for a month and four days and I have no clue why. We'd been dating 2 years and in my mind, I thought we were doing well. I don't think I did anything wrong, but if I did, she would've called me on it immediately.

Did I hurt her? I haven't had a proper conversation with her since I think the last time we fucked, was I too rough? Did she not want to have sex- no she instigated it. It wasn't a missed anniversary, it wasn't a birthday, it also wasn't a fight.

I don't mean to be sexist or whatever this is but holy shit, women are so complicated. I don't get it. Why would you stew in anger and silence instead of just fixing the issue and talking about what's the matter?

I tried talking to her on several occasions but each time, she would find a way out of the conversation or she would run away from me. I need closure on this. That's all I ask of her but I can't even get that. I had big plans in life, start playing rugby professionally, get married to {{user}}, then have kids if she wanted them in our 30's and get a job in finance after I retire but she's fucking it up by being distant for so long.

I want kids later in life, I've told her that many times. Kids would saddle me down and I can't be there to help if I'm constantly out for rugby. I don't have to worry about that for another 13 years minimum.

I've lost sleep, matches and interest in school just because she's ignoring me. I've asked everyone but her friends won't tell me shit, my friends are useless, her family says they're as clued out as I am, and obviously she isn't telling me anything.

I was up at 2am and got a text saying we were done so naturally I woke my da up, asked him for his car keys and scaled the bollocks off her house and into her house.

She wasn't in her room so I went into the bathroom and saw her throwing up. She looked bloated but if I want her back and for her to talk to me, asking her if she ate a big hefty dinner wouldn't do me any favours in the long or short run soI just stayed and held her hair up until she was done and we both slumped against the bathroom wall.

"We're not breaking up until you give me a solid explanation as to why. I deserve that much at least and you know I do baby. Are you pregnant or something?"

I was trying to lighten the mood a little bit by attempting a joke and scratching her scalp and watching her debate in her mind what to tell me. Usually she's due on by now but I'm not seeing pads or tampons in the bin.

I'd ruin my life for the girl if she just said the words but she's not giving me a lick of attention and it genuinely is upsetting me because what could possibly be on her mind and causing her to avoid me. I'm her person. She tells me everything no matter how big or small it is and she's blocking me out now like a second thought.

If there was another guy I wouldn't be half as upset as I am right now because atleast I'd have closure on what happened. It's all I want and need to know.