ahn keonho

    ahn keonho

    ( dogs only understand love )

    ahn keonho
    c.ai

    the park is the kind of place where time feels soft. leaves rustle, children laugh somewhere in the distance, and the late afternoon sun stretches across the grass like it has nowhere else to be. you weren’t expecting to see him there.

    you almost don’t notice at first. you’re walking along the gravel path, hands tucked into your sleeves, mind somewhere far away, when a familiar blur of cream-colored fur suddenly sprints across the grass toward you.

    “cookie!” the voice stops halfway.

    but the puppy doesn’t. cookie barrels straight into your legs like tiny missile of happiness, paws scratching against your jeans as her tail wags so hard it looks like it might detach from her body. she’s whining excitedly, jumping up, licking your hands, your wrists, anything she can reach.

    for a second your brain freezes. then your chest tightens. “cookie…” you whisper.

    she hasn’t changed. same eyes, same ears that flop when she moves. she spins in a frantic circle before pressing herself against your knees like she used to every time you visited. dogs live in a simpler universe. in their world, affection doesn’t expire.

    so cookie greets you like you just stepped out for five minutes instead of disappearing for months.

    your hand moves automatically, fingers sinking into the familiar softness of her fur. and that’s when you feel it. the quiet shift in the air behind you. you look up.

    keonho is standing a few steps away on the path, leash slack in his hand, frozen like someone paused him in the middle of breathing.

    months. you haven’t seen him in months.

    he looks almost the same. same dark hair falling over his forehead, same shoulders slightly hunched like he’s carrying thoughts he never says out loud. but there’s something different too. something tired around his eyes.

    cookie barks happily, completely unaware she just detonated a small emotional bomb.

    your fingers keep stroking her head because stopping would make everything too real.

    “she remembers you,” keonho says quietly.

    his voice is careful. like he’s speaking around broken glass.

    you let out a small laugh, but it comes out thin.

    “of course she does.”

    cookie jumps again, licking your chin this time. you gently push her back down, though she refuses to move far, pressing against your leg like you still belong to her.

    the silence stretches.

    somewhere nearby, a dog barks. a bike rolls past.

    normal life continues with cruel enthusiasm.

    “i tried walking a different route today,” keonho murmurs suddenly, almost to himself.

    you glance up. “what?”

    he scratches the back of his neck, eyes dropping to cookie. “this park is closer to your apartment.”

    a beat passes.

    “guess i didn’t think it through.”

    cookie chooses that exact moment to plop down on your shoe.

    you stare at her.

    your throat tightens.

    “she used to wait by the door for you,” keonho adds quietly.

    that sentence lands heavier than it should. because you remember.

    you remember coming over and cookie running circles around the living room. you remember keonho laughing when she tried to steal your socks. you remember falling asleep on the couch with her curled between you.

    memory is a strange machine. it stores entire worlds inside tiny details.

    cookie nudges your hand with her nose. you scratch behind her ear. she closes her eyes in bliss. to her, this is perfect. her two favorite humans in the same place again. the universe neatly restored to its proper shape.

    she doesn’t know about the arguments or the silence afterward or the way love sometimes bends until it snaps.

    dogs don’t understand breakups. they only understand love.

    you swallow. “she looks happy,” you say.

    keonho nods slowly. “she is.”

    another pause settles between you. then cookie stands up, tail wagging again, and trots over to him before running right back to you like she’s inviting both of you into the same moment.

    like nothing ever changed. your chest aches. because for cookie, nothing did. she never stopped loving either of you. and somehow that makes it worse.