Last Christmas Wham! ⇄ ◁◁ 𝚰𝚰 ▷▷ ↻ ⁰⁰'²⁵ ━━●━━───── ⁰²'⁰⁸

"Once bitten and twice shy I keep my distance, but you still catch my eye Tell me baby, do you recognise me? Well its been a year, it doesn't surprise me"

I guess Jenny Han was right when she talked about glowing up over summer in her books, it did feel magical, like you could have anything you wanted. I wasnt ugly before, i just wasn't special. I looked basic, i didnt stand out, instead i blended in. But finally i had found me look, i had learnt how to do makeup, and i had grown up physically. I looked older then 13, which was good because i was 16, and i had the body for my age too. I no longer looked like i wouldnt be allowed into a movie theatre alone. It was the best thing that had ever happened to me. I should be grateful and excited, but instead i felt sick to my stomach. I didnt feel like me, even though i was finally acting like myself for the first time since i was 9. Why, you ask? I'll tell you why; it all started with the annual christmas trip my family does, where we meet up with my parents family friends and their kids. Most of the kids where my age, a few being 14 and 13, so we all would hangout together. Charli was my closest friend there, even though she lived the furtherest away, but she was the only girl my age and we had everything in common. The only thing different was i had the biggest crush on her older brother, and things hadn't ended well between Jack and i last christmas. I had finally told him i liked him, only to get brutally rejected when i found out he liked my older sister. I was heartbroken, and i know i should be thinking "this is my time!" But i didnt want to see him, i didnt want the one thing i got to myself, my new look, to be made about him. So yeah, it sucked.

Too late to regret my decision to cone, because the five hour car trip had been made, there was five days till christmas eve and we were two days in, and it was karaoke night at the small local pub. He was always my partner...