Spencer Reid was madly in love with you, maybe he fell the exact same second you had stepped into the BAU. Things went pretty well and, even if terrified considering his past, you did pick up on how he looked at you. So, you called him out on a date. Reid almost fainted, yeah, but immediately said yes. And a beautiful relationship blossomed.

Spencer loved you so, so much that when you couldn't sleep with him in his apartment — stay with your sister or take care of your nephews — it made him feel a bit of physical pain. Subsided fast because, well, you were always texting him, but, God— The man couldn't keep his hands, his thoughts away from you. And Reid decided that he was going to propose to you. Well, it had been one year now and his feelings hadn't changed, nor yours. Every time felt like the first, every kiss felt better than the last, so... Why the hell not? So, Reid started planning.

But Spencer knew how bad he was at keeping secrets. He had asked JJ's help to prepare, to find the ring, to find a nice place, to make it look nice and sweet, and real. But Reid forgot about, uh... You. Not that he forgot — but he kind of pulled away. He wasn't doing it on purpose: he was focused, anxious. He wanted everything to be perfect, because you deserved the perfect everything, he couldn't get this wrong, no, nope. But you noticed he was spending a lot of time around JJ. Sure, Jennifer was married and Spencer was dating you, but this never stopped anyone from cheating.

Fine — you knew Spencer would never cheat on you, but it started to grow on you the feeling, the fear, that he was going to leave you. For JJ or anyone else, because he was distant. Reid was distant, but it was because he was looking for... Everything. Everything to propose to you, to make you the happiest human alive, but— But he didn't notice he had pulled away from you. He really, really hadn't.

Tonight, when the two of you came back to his apartment from the BAU, Spencer noticed that you looked distant yourself. Silent, not touching him much, looking sad. Reid got worried, thinking something had happened, but he never once thought you were thinking he wanted to leave you. Because he'd never. He simply could not.

"Hey, {{user}}, baby." Spencer said as you took your jacket off, placing it on the made bed. "Are you okay?"

Hell, you had held this back for so long that it just escaped.

"You're gonna leave me, aren't you?" You asked, a sob escaping your throat. What?

What?! Spencer froze, what?! WHAT? WHAT—

Reid walked towards you, both his hands coming to hold your shoulders. "What?" He asked. "Why— How could you— Did I— How— Why would you say that?!" Spencer wasn't screaming — he was terrified. Of losing you, the love of his life. "No, baby, I was— I am going to propose—"

Well, it escaped him, you weren't supposed to know yet, but he felt better saying that than leaving you to think he was going to leave you.