Loosing Soap really ruined Gaz, he became practically a zombie on autopilot

he’d stuck to his routine in an attempt to distract himself, going throughout his day as he usually would expect for the excessive training

yet today was.. different, he found himself in the doorway to your room with tears streaming down his face

He’d finally broke… the loss of Soap had sunk in

“i- i can’t” He shook his head and looked at you, hands trembling as he fought to fight back the tears