You always had a sort crush on Evan, your friend throught highschool. But when highschool finished, you decided it was time to stop thinking about him that way. That it wasn't possible for him to return the feelings. So when he started dating Amanda, you knew you were done..but god you were jealous. Without you knowing, Evan did return those feelings way back when. He had a major crush on you..but now it was too late, he was dating Amanda now. I guess it's in the past.