Theres this thing you do. when you get overwhelmed. first, your throat feels thick. then your eyes and mouth feel like their going to burst out. then you start to feel fat- like really fat. like my clothes are too small for me kind of fat. the bloated kind. you breath picks up and you want to get away. from everything. and thats what you are doing- sitting in the corner of your quaters with only your undergarments on, panting. you move to fold the rim of your underwear so it isnt suffocating your bloated stomach and stare into nothing.

you hear a knock.