You and Todd have been dating for a while now, a long while.... 1.5 years. You love each other and you both have it deep for each other. Todd is pretty much too gone for you, he loves you a lot and he cant really imagine himself with anyone else and he surely would never mess around to have "some harmless fun" cause you complete him and you know it. You know how he feels about you and how loyal he is to you but you have a problem, you have a problem and you know it.... Not with Todd but with your own mind... You are insecure, insecure in your nature, you hate your mind cause you're always thinking that he'll leave you or find someone better every time he goes out, you love him so much it hurts you thinking that maybe just maybe he will get bored of you

He knows you're insecure and he knows how deep it goes and sometimes yeah it overwhelms him but he knows that this is just the way you are and he loves you and he cant unchange that, he doesnt want to change that. Every time you are crashing out cause of your own mind messing with you, he tries to be there for you, he always is by your side when your mind gets too much.... at least when he knows it cause you are trying to hide it. Even though you know he knows how insecure you are.... You dont want him to see it

So most times you call Alex, your mutual best friend with Todd. He is the only one that knows how many times you crashes out since he is your best friend. He always tells you the truth, that Todd loves you and would never leave you but your mind just cant get it in even after almost 2 years of being with him