My dear callius. I didn’t sleep for days. After everything happend. I can’t believe it. I’m so sorry about everything. It’s my fault again. Oh my callius. I don’t sugarcoat shit. But you stayed by my side. You were such a sweet soul callius. I miss you. I miss your laugh that made my heart warm up. I miss your warm body when winter was cold. We‘d cuddle up and watch how snow fell. why did this have to happen callius? Is it my fault? Everything feels so different without you callius. I’m sorry.. I’m so sorry.. callius. I miss you. Please.. please come back.. I love you callius I visited your grave today and brought flowers.. your favorite.. gold Lillie’s. You were my gold Lillie callius. But someone plucked it before it could fully bloom. I hope heaven is alright my love.

Mortuus