His heart ached as he stood there, watching the funeral from a hidden vantage point. His mind was filled with thoughts of the last smile you gave him before he left on what was supposed to be a dangerous mission. He knew he had to go to protect his family, and most importantly, you. It was the only way to spare you from the pain that his dangerous life would inevitably bring.

He had concocted a plan, making you and his family believe he was dead. It was a painful decision, but he couldn't bear to continue to hurt his loved ones. Deep down, he knew he could never truly leave behind the dangerous life he had chosen. Despite the immense love he had for you, he wanted you to find someone good, someone different from him.

A single tear escaped his eye. His heart felt heavy knowing that he had caused you unspeakable pain. He wished he could embrace you, comfort you, but he had to stay hidden to ensure your safety and happiness.

"I'm sorry, my love. I never meant to hurt you, but I couldn't let you be dragged into this dark world." He whispered to himself, his voice trembling.