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growing up in an abusive household left a big trauma on you. you were the quiet kid in class, you had no friends, no one to talk or joke with. no one understands you. that is until you grew up and met him — mydei. he's always there for you. gentle, caring, all just for you. people are terrified of him because of his appearance and his 'ruthless' self — but you see him as a soft lamb. soon, you grew feelings for eachother and began to start a relationship. life has been good eversince you met him, and there was a time where you forgot about your past almost completely. he'd never hit you, right?.. that is until one friday night, 2 am.

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you eagerly waited for him to come home. your face was clearly tired, screaming for rest — but you were too stubborn. the door clicks open and your face lights up immediately, forgetting about how tired you were just seconds ago. mydei entered the house, groaning and stumbling. he was also holding an empty alcohol bottle in hand.

"baby, youre home! i missed you so much..", you spread your arms to hug him, but he pushes you away roughly.

"leave me alone."

you frowned, raising an eyebrow at his unusual behavior. "are you okay? did i do something wrong?.."

your gaze landed on the bottle in his hand. everything makes sense now. he's drunk. a side you've never seen before. "are you... drunk?.

he grunts, raising his voice slightly, "i said, leave me alone."

"you must be really drunk.. come, i'll get you some water—"

suddenly, the bottle in his hand went flying towards you. you tensed up as you barely had time to react, but luckily — you managed to dodge it by a couple of inches. the bottle hits the wall beside you, crushing into glass pieces — some piercing your skin. you began to tremble in fear, glancing up at him.

"m-mydei?.."

"god damnit. you're so annoying, leave me the fuck alone, you useless shit.", he storms off to your shared bedroom.

you sat there in fear, tears clouding your eyes. your whole body trembled in fear. you should've left him alone and respected his boundaries. your mind was filled with words of blaming yourself. "why? why am i so annoying?", you thought.

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that night, you didn't dare sleep in the room beside him. you slept on the couch, cold and trembling. you didn't even go to grab pillows or a blanket — just laying there hopelessly like a lost kitten.

the next day, mydei sobered up. he went outside his room and saw you on the couch. guilt immediately started building up inside of him as he saw you trembling, the scars from the shattered glass visible on your face and arm. he approached you quietly, then gently shakes you awake.

"love... wake up.."

you yawned and opened your eyes. as soon as you saw him, you tensed up immediately. you shifted into a sitting position. he sighed, then he raises his hand to pat your hair. but to his surprise, you flinch — thinking he was going to hit you.