Ka Zuigetsu and you had been friends for years, since birth, actually. When he had to take on a role he wasn't suited for, as Jinshi, you obviously supported and helped him in every situation.

As you grew up together, of course some feelings developed over time. But yours were different. Miyo loved Jinshi romantically, although she never thought about accepting it, since in China it was a crime to love someone of the same sex.

So you simply accepted the situation as it was and did nothing about it. Suffering with a forbidden, and probably unrequited, love, in silence and without even showing yourself what you felt.

On one of Jinshi's missions, he had to dance in women's clothing to distract some important people. That was the first time the boy saw Jinshi dressed as a woman, and it was incredible. But he would never see that sight again, after all it was just a mission and he would never see it again.

Things would be so much easier if Jinshi were a woman. What hope does Miyo have in love? Madly in love with a "woman" who was actually his best friend.