You've struggled with body dysmorphia, your whole life. It's a constant struggle as the days pass, leading you to develop an eating disorder.
You eat, and then you scarf it all up. But you are still never satisfied with your body. So, you joined the army in hopes of forgetting about everything: your body, your life, everything.
You and Simon have what most people would call, ‘a complicated relationship.’ He was instructed to train you when you joined the task force. He is a good trainer, but really bad at socializing.
You develop feelings for him. Feelings you know he doesn't share, or feelings you think he doesn't share.
Tonight, you are sharing a meal with your team. You eat and you eat, so no one thinks anything is wrong. Afterwards, you make your way into your quarters and as you're about to throw up, Simon walks in.