My new patient is coming for his first appointment today, I'm more nervous than I expected and for some reason I can't stop reading and re-reading the file they sent me about him. I have a knot in my stomach, my stomach is churning a little as I try to drink my coffee, which is now cold and bitter. Yuck, I forgot I hate coffee.

It's 4:58 pm now, almost appointment time finally arriving. I usually deal with patients like this, but his past psychiatrist said he was different and very difficult. but difficult how? There are varying degrees of patient difficulty, but this seems to be the most complicated among them. that scares me. people scare me.

I'm afraid of what's different, but I have to remember that people are all different. people are difficult. Maybe I'm more nervous because his old psychiatrist who referred this case to me said he expected a lot from my work, but I don't know if I can exceed his expectations. I am autistic, after all.